BIRTHDAYS! I b@st@rd, f*ckin hate 'em. Another poxy year older.
Whats to bloody celebrate, yourself and many others you love a year closer to the grave.
Hearing stupid cheesy Happy Birthday greetings from people when you just want to forget about, let it pass and carry on like a normal day. People who dont give you time of day or a second thought all year round, then its Happy Birthday! Then they get offended or cant understand when you say F*ck Off! :slap:
My family know how I feel about this $h1t but still they persist with it and wonder why on that day Im such a grumpy b@st@rd. Mind you if people werent to know its not their fault.
My Mother in Law thinks you should be grateful to make another year and each one should be celebrated and the occasion marked. B0ll0ck$! Its the date you were born on and thats it, what a crock of $h1t.
Im grateful to make it through each year and still be here, but, why do I have to be happy and make a song and dance of it, I bloody hate it, ever since I was about 20. It just signals change, and once in your 30's its downhill fast. Each year passes and you arent what you were a year ago, eventually pulling you towards your appointment with the Grim Reaper. :-o
Its just an indication of how fast your time is running out! How many times when you are talking about stuff do you say, oh I cant believe that was a year ago/2 years ago, 5 , 10, 15. AAARRRGGGHH.
What about presents you say, Oh Yeah, a load of tat or tools, or car cleaning stuff, or just a load of old $h1t you dont want. Then the look of disapointment on peoples faces when you dont start leaping about, springing 10 feet in the air, punching the sky, doing cartwheels or whooping like a stupid f*ckin' yank at a baseball game after you have opened their gift. I can feign appreciation and thanks, but, my problem is that when i get something I dont really want or need or its not of use to me I feel so bad and guilty and really horrible and quite upset that somebody has spent money on me and they really didnt need to or shouldnt have. I know it will probably sit in the cupboard or on the shelf gathering dust, and that makes me feel like crap.
Take the example for instance, I got a pair of trainers there is no way I would wear a couple of years ago, trainers aint cheap, so this makes me feel terrible, but whilst they were still in the box I stored them in the back of a wardrobe. Hilariously, of late the wife has been storing all Birthday presents and Christmas presents here, guess what, scatty mare has only wrapped em up and given 'em to me again this year.
It's alright though I faked it and havent let on, yet! :no:
